Please Forgive Me

The title of this entry is the title of song written by Gerald Crabb and sung most famously by his son, Jason. Please listen to it here or at least look up the lyrics.

This is a song I find myself singing a lot, and as I lay on my bed tonight, a million things going through my mind, I came to a realization: this is the appropriate reaction!

Imagine with me for a minute a woman walking down the street with her husband. It is a warm, sunny, early autumn day. The leaves are just beginning to change colors. The scenery is positively gorgeous, but the woman cannot enjoy it. She cannot bask in the warmth of the sun. She cannot even enjoy the time with her husband, for, at the end of the street they are walking down, comes a man with whom she had an affair. She is gripped with panic and shame. She hopes and prays that the man turns around, but he sees her and walks towards them. Her heart begins to stammer and she begins to sweat, though she is frozen. Here she is faced with both her husband and her lover. Her husband addresses the man with disgust and hate, for he knows that this the one she had an affair with, though the woman said nothing about it. This woman now has two choices as they turn to her. She could stay with her husband, whom she loves, or she could leave with her lover, whom she also loves.

Now imagine: The stress becomes too much, and she breaks down on the sidewalk. She cries and grabs for her husband. "Please, forgive me!" she cries. "You are all I have! It is your decision to make, but, please, forgive me!"

Does this sound far-fetched? Does this sound like an impossible scenario? You may ask, "How did the husband know?" I tell you, this is a scenario that happens all too often. We face it.

For we are Christ's bride and when we give in to sin, we betray our love for Him and seek what we want more, like the woman did. So, when we, who claim to love God, are brought face to face with our sin, God is right there with us. This is when we show who we love most: ourselves or God. We can either continue to live in our sin, or we can fall to our knees and cry out, "Please forgive me! I need your grace to make it through! All I have is you, I'm at your mercy!"

It is through God's power that he gives to us (grace) that we can make it through each day. And it is His mercy that we, who are sinful, are allowed to live. When we cannot sleep because our sin weighs on our minds, or when our hearts have no joy, how can we not fall to our knees and cry out to Him?

Yes, this song is powerful. And it is, truly, the appropriate response to God in the face of our sin. And remember, "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).